Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............................

Isn't everybody entitled to let out their anger once in awhile?
Isn't it alright to feel sad, feel grumpy, feel tired once in awhile?
How many times have u had to look cheerful and happy, when inside u don't feel that way at all?
How many times have u had to smile, when u didn't feel like smiling?
How many times have u had to engage in polite conversation, when u didn't feel like talking?
How many times were u made to do sumthing, or go sumwhere, without anybody asking for ur consent, and just assumed that u would do it?

I hate myself for always having to laugh off snide comments for the sake of being 'sporting' when inside I just feel like telling ppl off for these remarks..........
I hate being ms. goody 2 shoes, when inside i'm ms. spitfire.....
I hate being manipulated to do sumthing, without asking for my consent.....
Sometimes I just like to crawl back in my shell and be ms. antisocial...... not having to care about my appearance or wat I say.....

Lately, I just feel very tired...... tired because I have to always be on my toes and put on my best performance at work...... I come home late, because there is nothing to come home to. I miss Ah Man......... But this is life, life goes on. I have to make my own living, and not depend on D anymore, I have to be a corporate slave until I'm old and gray.